YESSSSSSSSSSSS FINALLY APPLIED FOR NANYANG SCHOLARSHIP
My essay was quite lame, but that seriously can't be helped considering the 300 word limit. No one ever wrote something truly inspiring in 300 words. Haha.
I wrote about OCIP, which is indeed very hao xie. Now please call me for interview!!!! *prays*
Call should come in some time in late April or early May (which is like, my birthday period, thank you) depending on when you submit your app I guess. Until then, I feel VERY VERY FREE and unburdened :)
I also feel very thankful that I know exactly what I want, most of the time. And that I never regret the choices I make. I guess it's because I don't look back and keep on thinking of what could have been. Like, what if I had gone to NUS business school instead. Or, what if I had tried mass comm instead. Okay, I do, but I don't allow myself to dwell on it for too long. That is the key to contentment, I think - knowing how to be satisfied with your choices. I don't want to be otherwise, forever permanently stressed out and lamenting the missed opportunities in life.
Because sometimes not all opportunities must be grabbed. Some should be missed just so you can focus on the ones that are truly right for you. If you go for all of them, you bite off more than you can handle, you don't perform your best in all these opportunities, you waste them all. Better to take only what you really want and focus.
I guess I don't understand why people have so much difficulty making choices of what kind of course they should take. Of course, it is a turning point in life and they should be given all the time they need to think it through carefully. Yet I realise I've never yet faced such problems in life. I always miraculously knew what I wanted - bio/chem double science, because physics sucks, then VJC arts because I like VJ and I like the humanities (how is science ever going to be relevant in my career and life), and taking lit maths econs geog GP for my subject combi, and not going for H3 or KI cuz why spend time doing the unnecessarily hard. Not taking external scholarship even though I probably can. I can tell you, being able to decide so quickly saves a LOT of mental troubling and stress. Which is extremely ironic since I can take 20 mins to decide between 4 patterns for a notebook.
I knew I wanted Nanyang Business School since I was in J1. Of course having a sister graduating from there helps a lot. But I simply assess the pros and cons and go for the one which appeals to me most:
NTU, because I've seen their hostels when i visited my sis in uni and I loved the vibes.
NBS, because they offer tourism & hospitality management (which I might take) and a direct 3 year honours program and are ranked first in SEA.
I found out all I could about NUS business too (sorry, SMU. But your girls are too chio and your school is too new and your students are too pushy for me). Their double degree in comm studies and business admin is very attractive. But I don't want a double degree and have no life (I WANT TO ENJOY MY UNI LIFE) and spend 4.5 years waiting to get my degree not knowing if I can graduate with honours. So clearly it's NTU business.
I don't want to be zhuai but my first choice is always right. ALWAYS. Like not dropping to H1 anything even though I was contemplating dropping h1 geog. I don't know why. I think it's because I don't focus on
what could have been and concentrate instead on
making the most out of what I've chosen. I think many people haven't yet learned to do this, to sorta have an idea of what you want and try your best to get near it without being too distracted by alternatives along the way. Of course, these alternatives may turn out to be the right path for you. But it's too tiring for me to accept changes in my life (like perception changes, ability and task changes. I don't like change) so I just stick with what I've chosen, and hope it turns out fine.
And most of the time it does. (because I have an eternal optimism and endless faith that things will always find their place in life and settle to be fine. Not everyone is able to acquire this talent. It lets me sleep well at night.)
Those of you who are fretting what to take, unsure if you're making the right choice, come on. Just make one already. I'm sure if you give whatever you choose your best shot you will do brilliantly. Those who've made one and are fretting if it's right, DO NOT think like that. Just focus on what you;ve chosen and do your best man.
We're all big people now! Uni life! Impending adulthood! Career choices!
God I wish I never had to grow up. I want to be stuck in this post As pre U rut forever.